I keep wondering why it hurts this much. I met this guy on bdff. We did chat for sometime and he seemed so nice. So polite. So real . We exchange watsup numbers. Kept in touch throw out. It felt so real. He was thousands of miles away yet he seemed so close. He was so lovely and so charming. He held my heart by his hands. I felt like we had known each other in the real world yet we hard never met. Then one day, he suddenly disappeared. He stopped communicating. I tried contacting him. Calling. Watsuping. But all in vain. This hurts so much. But why does it hurt so much as if it was real. Oooh my God.
It hurts you as much as it did because you gave feelings to it and he didn't. You cared more than he did. You were genuine and he was not. He displayed a lie to you because you made it easy to. Don't get me wrong, you showed up each time in a timely manner like a person expressing care to another does and it's a true presence even though it's through a phone or computer screen. When it comes to him, you were one in the number he was displaying himself to like he did you.
I feel you should have not treated him so solid to your feelings. You should have treated him lightly and as he showed up to you, as he did you, unfortunately. These days and times, it really takes action more than words, and that "action" is something that will be significant to you. Somebody whom is thousands of miles away wouldn't be anyone you should take to the chest so quickly; they may not be who they display to behind a computer screen...
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